When God takes something from your grasp, he’s not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better.
Via @Shadyy
Your First Time
January 15, 2010
The room is pitch black-the only thing you can feel is his eyes piercing yours, as you lay side by side. Your body heats with fire and leaves you weak all over. If there were a world-wide blackout-he would be enough to light your world. His touch is smoother than a baby’s butt and you can no longer carry a conversation because your words become choppy. You start to say “I-had-a-great-timmm-to–(breathe)-night”, but the words fall short as he runs his hands through your hair and nibbles on your ear. He stops-whispers in your ear and then continues to breathe heavily. His heat comes in contact with your skin and your body starts to wiggle like a worm and instantaneously your back starts to arch.
The look he held in his eyes, held all the thoughts and actions that your lips would not express. He drew your face closer to his-yet you still couldn’t keep your eyes fixated on him. You have more butterflies in your stomach than a 5th grader but no matter how much you try to leave, something just keeps pulling you in. Is it curiosity, the alcohol, testing limits or plain old wanting something you shouldn’t? Whatever it is, you are only interested in the result.
You never thought you would ever experience this-like this. I mean who really cares for it-but you were proven wrong. A moment that you never thought you would share with someone of his genre, with so much passion. Your heart starts to skip a beat as you close your eyes and he draws you in closer. He lightly places the tip of his nose along yours. The delicate touch held such a tight connection-your moment. The way his lips traced your lips, was your first meet with heaven. It is this moment and with these feelings that made you lose your composure to actually indulge in the moment for what it was. His lips outlined every area you had to offer, while never losing the initial connect, the nose touch-being extra careful that your lips never actually locked together to form a kiss. Your heart races with each second that goes by. Each second that defines your first time-your first Eskimo Kiss.
Touch The World
January 11, 2010
This is a surprise that was done for Oprah performed by Black Eyed Peas and choreographed by Michael Gracey. This is a very heart-felt piece. When I first saw it, I was extremely touched by the way these 20,000 random strangers came together to put this whole thing off. It just shows the power individuals have within and when put to the test-they can touch the world.
Pump Your Breaks
January 10, 2010
Its 11PM and you reach for your phone. It fumbles to the ground; you regain it and look at your screen. The light is fully lit and then you squint. You are getting ready for bed, when it suddenly dawned on you that you haven’t spoken to your girlfriend all night. You have a big day ahead of you, so you decide to get this over with and you make the first call-no answer. In less than 30 seconds you hit that speed dial again-still no answer. 2 minutes passed by and you’ve made 5 attempts already-still no success. She’s looking at her phone; she hears your special ringtone and sees your picture pop up-but all she does is hit silent. She hears your ringtone a second time-only this time she got smart and put the phone on silent and got right back to business. Because if you are out of sight, you sure as hell is out of mind! She gets ready and applies her gloss and jumps in her ride, grabs her phone, sees 7 missed calls, dials your number and says-hey babe sorry I missed your calls! My phone was left on silent and one of the girls needed me tonight-she was going through hard times. She says all the right words and everything you may have been thinking about and all the questions that you wanted answered-all go out the window with the sound of her voice.
Fellas fellas fellas! I think this is long overdue. Many guys are underestimating their opponent and fail to realize that girls are better at the game then they are. This may not be a proven fact-but the reason for that is fairly obvious. It’s because we females never get caught-and when we do, it is because we wanted to get caught!
Guys think they have everything under control-when in reality we can see through you more than we can Casper. We ask questions, we are always on our feet, we are aware of our surroundings and we straight up know how to lie when need be! We are critical beings. We already have to endure a lot of pain that naturally comes with being a woman-did you really think we were going to slip up?
We like men, are needy. For the same reasons that men would like to step out in their relationship are the same reasons woman do it too. In many cases, the desire is a lot greater for women because we are more emotional and deeply seek that sort of attention from our significant other. Guys! Don’t be fooled into believing that girls are timid and don’t really care for sex-that’s a lie in its own. We may not want to hop on the first dude we see-but that doesn’t mean we don’t want it!
Men should not be insecure and think that all girls cheat and lie because that is not the case. Just like, some where in the haystack you’ll find that one needle (guy) that won’t cheat. But no one should ever be naïve. If a situation seems suspect, it’s because it probably is. Don’t think that it could never happen to you. Truth is, it already happened and it’s probably taking place…
On another note, not only can we stump your own game, but on a whole, women are naturally better than men. The word states it in its own! WO-MAN-we are you, but 2 steps ahead of you. We are that “WO” factor. Men have a delayed reaction and lag that much behind us. So when you think you’ve won and conquered a particular moment-we’ve been there and done that! Almost to the point where we feel beyond that moment because its so…passé.
I think the ladies can relate on this very well. Women don’t get humiliated by the male species because we don’t try to maintain an attention-seeking-go-hungry-ego. We act emotional and make it seem like we feel! But we already walked all up and down your ego and you just never knew how to act on it. Hence why, when a guy feels like they’ve been hurt by a woman they hurt as if the world just crumbled before their eyes. My message to that guy-get over it, shit happens! Get your ass off pause and return to live programming because nobody gives. Everyone gets hurt and goes through a time of healing but at one point, enough is enough. Man up and get over yourself because you are not the only person on this earth! I mean don’t you have something else to worry about? Stop setting yourself up for disappointment and unhappiness by giving yourself a reason to hate on woman. We are not your enemy and we are not the reason. The reason really is, how you could have been so blind to let that happen to yourself. You are actually angry at yourself and the fact that someone actually performed a drive by on your ego!
The world goes round and so should you. Stop trying to find a reason for your unhappiness and act on it. Self-pity is never the way to go because it leaves you looking for answers that are never there. We should adapt to our surroundings because if we don’t, we will never be able to succumb our weakest moment.
Your Past Is Your Present
January 5, 2010
“I don’t believe in regrets-just experience. Regret to me is refusing to learn from something that maybe didn’t go as planned. Fear of regrets only stops people from experiencing, thus learning. And once you stop learning, you might as well be dead.”
-An Eskimo
Life is way too short to have any regrets. The decisions you take in life should reflect yourself to a T! One may certainly not walk on egg shells their entire life and neither as expected, would one stop them self from living life to the fullest-because of some flimsy fear of committing an act so terrible that would make it regretful. It is obviously possible for one to enjoy their life and still engage without hesitation, in hopes of not doing anything they may regret down the road.
Everything that I’ve done in my life so far, has all been accounted for and never have I looked back and said “I wish I could have done it differently”. My life is designed for me, à la Moi, and me only-and I can’t complain. Everything thrown along your path is a learning experience. How you chose to handle it, is what determines how you’ll look back on the situation. If a situation arises and I continuously respond in an auto-pilot manner then I will have plenty of regrets. Suppose I was to look at every experience and wait ‘til the end to come around and then say “well it just didn’t work out”? I would be a damn fool to let that experience come around for the 10th visit and I’m spitting the same verse. At that point, my body should be so allergic to the sound of those words, that I should be biting my own tongue at every attempt. This isn’t hook-on-phonics but there is a difference between an experience and just plain old stupidity-I would be the latter to go back to the same situation and make the same mistake. That would be a prime definition of a regret, especially if it blows up in your face the SAME way as it did previously. Every experience that happens is one of a kind-yet the previous ones will always remain as building blocks. Learning from each road block that arises is what enables me to continue along my path and make better choices than the last. That being said I can never regret my pass-because it has made me into what I have become for today and for what I will become tomorrow.
Should you live your life in fear of doing something you’d regret-definitely not. Should you be prepared to make better decisions then the last-indeed. Should you take all these experiences and learn from them-that was a giving. But realize that what you are living for is yourself and that the things you feel will make you into a better person if you chose to learn from it. Therefore, regardless of if you are living in fear or preparing yourself to not make the same mistakes-it will always be a continuous learning cycle that you should be ready to attack. So in my opinion, you will always be learning-and therefore, always be alive.
Picture Perfect
January 3, 2010
Let’s face it-there ain’t a damn thing in life that is promised tomorrow. I think that has to be the biggest learning lesson of life. Once you’ve faced it, you will never forget it. Some people deal with this very early in life-but due to developmental restraints, we never acknowledge it as such. It is almost like a blind person coming face to face with the devil-if it’s there they may just shake hands with the devil.
Life is full of surprises. It has more pot holes than Montreal would ever be able to offer! There will be some that will mess up your tires and axel-and others that will make you wipe the sweat off your brow and say “that’s a close one”! Nonetheless, they are always there, you may just not see ‘em coming.
Many people attempt to live a perfect lifestyle, but the only thing perfect about it is the lie they’re living. Who ever takes a second to indulge themself in believing that there could possibly be one-is clearly stuck in la-la-land. I mean once upon a time I thought Tiger Woods and his family was perfect-to find out he was an almost perfect liar and even that failed. I mean we know what perfection is by definition, but how do we amplify this perfection in terms of quality. You can get 100% on a test-that is perfect. But how do you define the perfect relationship, family, friend, car, bed, house, life? How can you quantify things that are not measurable and may be defined differently by others? Someones views on one thing will differ from person to person, based on their own goals and self-worth. So again I ask what is perfection? Does it even exist? Do you consider yourself to be perfect?
I am not perfect-nor would I stand before God and say that I am. Only God can judge me-and even at that he is not that critical. So what I do and how I do it only matters to the one that is ultimately perfect-God. That being said, I can say that I strive for perfection. To achieve perfection and to make the necessary adjustments in my life to live up to my own expectations-that satisfies my definition of perfection. No one is 100% perfect, but should you chose to live your life a certain way and own up to those demands, then who is to say that you are not perfect? I believe that perfection is anything good. Whatever you allow yourself to feel-perfection. Whatever you allow yourself to be-perfection. Whatever you live up to-perfection. Whatever is bad but allowed you to grow-perfection. If you write notes on a paper and then re-copy it 3x before recopying it on the pc-that is perfection because the notes are done to your likings and you made sure it was done to perfection. To someone else one copy straight to the pc is all that would suffice-but that is a personal decision and does not necessarily mean you’re not perfect.
Many people may want to give up right away when a situation derails. Just because a situation doesn’t go as planned, does not mean it can no longer become perfection nor does it mean that the situation was never perfect to begin with. The ability to put things back on track and the dedication and time put towards fixing the problem is what makes everything perfect. So never give up on what you want and always strive to get what you want and make it yours. Your reward will be the effort that you put into it and your feeling of accomplishment-your own perfection.
“The human story does not always unfold like a mathematical calculation on the principle that two and two make four. Sometimes in life they make five or minus three; and sometimes the blackboard topples down in the middle of the sum and leaves the class in disorder and the pedagogue with a black eye.”
~Winston Churchill
One Life To Live
January 1, 2010
It is the beginning of new things. A new start to doing things right. It is the time of year that people set themselves up for disappointment by making a whole bunch of New Year’s Resolutions-to only live up to them for the first 90 days (if so long). It is the time of year to make things right-and move on. It is the time of the year to get off your lazy ass and make something of yourself. It is a NEW YEAR!
I mean you don’t need a new year to roll around in order for you to stop acting like a self-proclaimed jerk-but is always a good look for you! The new year always makes you feel like you were giving another shot at life-without having to go through the re-birth bit! The feeling it gives when January 1st comes around, is one of utmost force. It makes you feel like there is nothing in this world that you can not handle-and there shouldn’t be!
This year I decided not to do any resolutions. Instead I took the things that I’ve held on to last year and let them all go. This new year is another year for me to shine-and I plan on doing just that. My 2010 saying is “One life to live”. With that in mind, there will be no holding back. Life is too short-and thus far I was granted another year in good health. I plan on making the best of what I have been giving and take nothing for granted.
Last year brought me some very memorable times and many “hit home” moments. I am forever grateful for:
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My vacation back home (Jamaica)
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My family
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The Girls-BCBU
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My health
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Continuous success
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My moment of growth
At this same time next year, I plan on looking back at this year and feel accomplished and that I lived my life according to me and me only-because at the end of the road, I am the only thing that matters. Looking back 2009 was great and the one to follow will forever be greater. Bigger and better things for 2010 and I like to say that’s no lie. So look out for me-cuz I just might be that pain in your ass like hemorrhoids!
“The hand of the diligent will rule, But the lazy man will be put to forced labor. “
-Proverbs 12:24
